22Immediately he made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead to
the other side, while he dismissed the crowds. 23And after he had
dismissed the crowds, he went up the mountain by himself to pray. When
evening came, he was there alone, 24but by this time the boat, battered by
the waves, was far from the land, for the wind was against them. 25And
early in the morning he came walking toward them on the sea. 26But when the
disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified, saying "It is a
ghost!" And they cried out in fear. 27But immediately Jesus spoke to them
and said, "Take heart, it is I; do not be afraid." 28Peter answered him,
"Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water." 29He said,
"Come." So Peter got out of the boat, started walking on the water, and
came toward Jesus. 30But when he noticed the strong wind, he became
frightened, and beginning to sink, he cried out, "Lord, save me!" 31Jesus
immediately reached out his hand and caught him, saying to him, "You of
little faith, why did you doubt?" 32When they got into the boat, the wind
ceased. 33And those in the boat worshipped him, saying, "Truly, you are the
Son of God."
Step 1-Initial Diagnosis: Battered
As the disciples' boat was making its way across the sea, it was battered
by the wind and waves. And there is nothing to suggest that there is any
relief in sight. There are no crowds. There is no Jesus in the boat (not
initially). Just themselves. Do they brave it alone? Do we? Even for us
who think we have our feet planted firmly on dry land, the experience of
being battered is not foreign to us: battered by pressures, by put-downs,
by judgments, even the physical battering that has become all too common in
our society. And we can know the experience of being alone in our battered
state.
Step 2-Advanced Diagnosis: Terrified
Wondering whether or not one will survive the ordeal is enough to terrify
most of us. But it is not simply a problem for our senses, which are
allowing us to hallucinate in our fears. For the disciples, it is the very
fear that death is coming to them on the water (even ghostly). And that
fear becomes so pervasive, that nothing can seem to squelch its stormy
invasion upon our being. Hence, even when Peter steps out of the boat, it
becomes evident that the problem is one of "little faith," or doubting that
there is any hope. But then, the entire focus is on the waves and the wind
and our puny, little energies to combat them -- which are inevitably too
weak. Nonetheless, God is not in the picture for us. Only our unfaith.
Step 3-Final Diagnosis: Drowning
In that moment, as we are drowning, perhaps the cry goes up for help. But
who is there to rescue us? We have not valued God -- only the goal of
saving our own skins, trying to survive the best we know how, and now
finding that death's toll is not simply God's non-answer, but God's answer
to our dilemma.
Step 4-Initial Prognosis: Caught
As Peter's nose is about to go under, it is at that moment that Jesus
reaches out his hand and catches him. So also we are caught, when our
noses are underwater. We didn't deserve to be caught. That much is
certain. But the fact that we are caught by his hand reaching into our
watery grave is the promise with us from our baptism on, and in all our
daily drownings. Christ has reached into the grave of our being and pulled
us through -- at the cost of his own drowning in our sin. But that is how
he becomes our Lord, so powerful that even the wind and waves obey him.
Step 5-Advanced Prognosis: Worshipping
The worship this inspires in our beings acknowledges who Jesus is for us:
the true Son of God who gives us the strength to walk on water and not be
afraid. It's not simply that there is a miracle that happens here --
though, indeed, such faith for so motley a crew as ourselves is miracle
enough. What it means is that the Lord we trust is greater than all the
obstacles we encounter, anything that would lead us to be afraid. Jesus'
arms are enough to pull us through. And our worship of him as Lord is our
faith that we are never alone.
Step 6-Final Prognosis: The Other Side
Which leads us to where our Lord had directed us all along -- to the other
side, to the challenges, and maybe indeed dangers, on the other side. But
who's afraid of crossing the water, or the road, or the tracks, to the
other side when the Lord who has already been there for us calls us to
"come" and "take heart"? The opportunity for new courage and new heart
awaits us all! And with Jesus' steady arm, we are sure to endure!